Yesterday after attending the mass at St. Dominic Parish at San Carlos
City, Pangasinan, I walked down the
streets and listened to good vibes music (for my happy hormones, hahaha). When
suddenly one question popped in to my mind, “Kung hindi ko kaya pinili ang buhay na ‘to, nasaan na kaya ako ngayon?”
A.
Corporate
World
Thinking of being in this kind of
world, it is challenging! I have to do a daily routine with laptop, paper works
and alike. I have to deal with my officemates and bosses. I have to meet certain
deadlines, meetings here, meetings there… I have to fix myself everyday and
look forward on the things that will happen the following days that might
somehow change my routine, and maybe look forward on my pay day. Money that can buy everything I want!!! Exciting, isn’t it? I have more money
to save or use to help my family or to start an independent life (a life that
every single man/woman has been dreaming of…building the best future!) Why not?
B. Business Entrepreneurship
If not being a part of a corporate
world, I may be an entrepreneur. :)
I love recreating and developing new things. My passion for that little
creativity (20% of me) can help me build a new business. (That’s why I took up
a business course) There was this time when I told my dad that I want to be One
of the Business Tycoons in the country. Funny it may seem, but I want to be
featured in business & lifestyle magazines with all my accomplishments
written. Hahaha! I’ve been inspired by those young entrepreneurs who made it to
be known and popular. I want that too!
C. University
Spending 16 years in school was
not that bad. It was actually fun! Having those new knowledge about everything,
meeting friends and colleagues and even being involved in different
organizations… Ohh school! I want you again. Hahaha. I want to have a master’s
degree on business or public administration or urban planning maybe, or why not
fulfill my childhood dream of becoming a corporate lawyer? J I
love having that “Atty.” before my first name. That’s so cool! And hoping to be
a top notcher in my bar exams. Oh dreams! :) I can live a dream of being a professional, a
popular one. Who among us don’t want to be that successful?
D. Public
Service
Growing up in a family who
dedicate their lives in serving the public, it somehow becomes a desire. Why
not continue the legacy? :D
It is not the fame that I am after of, but it is really about helping (sounds
like a politician, huh?). But sincerely, I want to change the government system
(the wrong ones only of course) and to help develop the society. How can these
businessmen help the marginalized people and how can the laborers help these
investors as well wherein they can have an equal and fair system? How can we
help Filipinos be entrepreneurs as well? Hmm. Oh well, I don’t know how I can do
that, I don’t have that enough knowledge and skills! :)) Those are just my
ideas!
Whew! A lot of things are playing
on my mind! But, when I look to where I am now. I am at peace. I am joyful. Those dreams,
those fantasies, those desires… I can have it all in the life that I’ve chosen
now.
1. Corporate
world is also a mission field. God is my Big Boss! :) I’ve been dealing with
people also (a lot of people)! I enjoy hearing their stories and being inspired
by them. I love to witness the transformation of people, the reconciliation of
relationships and the restoration of hearts and souls. Those become the
affirmation of my calling. This is not about me. This is all about Him! This
may be a routine or just an ordinary thing to do, but focusing on Him makes it more
meaningful and even extraordinary. :) And oops I forgot to tell, I am highly paid, more
that what I’ve asked and deserved for. I have a Big Boss, remember? :)
2. Being
an entrepreneur is my work also. Innovating things, being creative (sometimes)
help me develop my other side. I may not be featured in any magazine, but one
thing I believe, my name is written in heaven.
3. I
want to go back to school, but this work has been a personal school to me. I
may not learn by books nor instructors, but I’m learning with all these experiences...nothing
compared experiences! Everyday is a learning, not only about the mission work
but also about myself. I am being mold and refined more by Him. I may not have that “M.A.” after my name nor
“Atty.” before it, but I am happy with my identity. I am created beautifully by
God and I am His princess.
4. Mission
work is a public service --- serving His people. The change, the development,
the equality and fairness of everybody, it can all be attained! We are all His
workers in His vineyard and we can do it together. I may not believe in my own
capacity, but I know God is here with me, He believes in me! And I want to
continue His legacy.
Yes, it is true! I
have the best job in the world, a complete life-growth package, my perfect choice!
Missionary life is my
calling and this is where God wants me to be.
[I owe a lot to Couples
for Christ for being a blessing to our family for 23 years and counting. If
not because of this community, I may not be falling in love with Him this
deeply. To my parents, thank you for offering me to Him. Indeed He is forever faithful! :)) Praise
God!]
